Crossfit lately

This post seems like a million years ago. Reality? It’s barely been 2 months. But so much seems to have happened since then.

If I had to summarize the past 2 months of crossfit, it’d be this: learning to capitalize on failure.

crossfit handstand pushups

Failure’s a funny thing though. If you don’t “achieve” it, you haven’t pushed yourself hard enough. When you do hit it though, you want to sucker punch it in the face.

Previously, failure and I weren’t on the best of terms. I’d try to avoid it at all costs whether it was at the age of 14 months and not walking until I could do it without falling, at the age of 18 and spending the entire 12 hour bus ride home from a soccer tournament in Virginia studying for some dumb AP bio test the next day while everyone else had fun or, at 24 staying up all night going over slides for the first board of trustees presentation I ever gave for work. I’d kick failure’s ass every time with enough prep work, come out the winner and never really have to deal with it’s repercussions.

Until I started this crossfit thing.


Let’s just say that when you’re among a group (of awesome) people and you’re stuck at 65 pounds above your head in a push press while they’re all doing an average of 25 more than that with ease, failure comes off as one hell of a bitch. At least that’s what I thought on July 31st when that actually happened. Or, on August 21st with hang cleans when I couldn’t even get under a bar that most were using as their first set weight. I’d leave frustrated, annoyed and all “woe is me”. Gross, I hate that.

But then little by little, I started seeing some gains. Whether it was getting double unders even if they were interspersed with 2 singles, being able to balance myself for a few seconds in a handstand off the wall or, just decreasing the band size on pull-ups. Small stuff that made me want to keep at it. And somewhere in the past few weeks I realized I had this failure thing all backwards. Feeling frustrated and annoyed wasn’t going to get me anywhere. A positive attitude, continued work and a plan might.

Somehow the mental switch seems to have been all I needed because in the past 2 weeks alone, I got unassisted pull-ups down, strung together 15 double unders and just last night PR’ed my push press by 15 pounds in 2.5 months. Does it irk me to see that small little “f” next to my last set when I could only get 1 rep at 83 pounds and not 3? Y-E-S. Like, a lot. I want to take the marker that writes it and throw it out of the gym most times. Hearing my coach in the background sigh when I couldn’t do it doesn’t help either (I’m kidding, Dave). But instead of looking at it as failing at 83 pounds, I’m looking at it as PRing by 15 and thinking about what the heck I can do to work on my scrawny ass arms because they’re definitely my biggest weakness. Thanks for those, dad.

crossfit rings

I’ve had some goals in my head for awhile now that I just didn’t want to put on paper in case I failed and then had to actually acknowledge that failure. Well how freakin dumb is that? They’re written down now and even instagrammed for the world (or 1000 or so followers) to see. I fully expect some failures along the way to hitting them but instead of looking at that as a bad thing, I’ll be choosing to use them as motivation to kick some ass next time.


  1. Heather (Heather's Dish)

    i hate failure too, but thank goodness it’s how we grow, right?! you should be incredibly proud! i’ve been doing crossfit style workouts at home during Wes’s naptimes, and there’s NO WAY i could do what you’re doing!

  2. Calee

    It’s been a while since you did a fitness update. And I’m with you — failures need to happen because otherwise you’re not pushing yourself. Thanks for the reminder.

    I had major failures yesterday at yoga. To the point of the girl next to me laughing. Seriously? Who does that. So what if i had to literally sit on the floor with both knees bent to get a forehead-to-knee connection … that’s where I was at yesterday. Next time will be better.

  3. Kelly @ No Sugar Sweet Life

    You are rockin’ girl… and maybe (just maybe) someday I’ll try out crossfit too. You know, when I’m finally settled into my new mountain home, however many more months that will be :)

  4. Courtney @ Journey of a Dreamer

    Youve got this girl! CrossFit has been the best thing to happen to me! It was hard though… I am so used to being good at stuff right away. School, work, friendships… so not being the best at CrossFit has been such a challenge, but it pushes me to work harder!

    1. Running to the Kitchen Post author

      I guess I could…never really tried until crossfit. The hard part is not getting into the handstand position (bc the wall is there for support!), it’s doing a push up once you’re in it! If you have someone teaching you, there’s nothing to be afraid of :)

  5. Mary@FitandFed

    Have fun with those athletic goals! I’m used to having athletic goals that take me a long, long time to reach. It can take me two years or more to get to a new test level in skating– not that there aren’t a lot of other things happening along the way. But the goals do help keep me out there- I hope they are a good motivating force for you, too. And yeah, there are some goals I haven’t committed to because I don’t know if they are possible or even a good idea. One of those goals is getting my axel– one step closer now that I have my lutz jump.

  6. Kari@Loaves and Dishes

    I hear ya on the fear of failure thing. Ugh, I hate the way it feels. Sometime I need a boot in the behind to take the plunge into the unknown, only to find out that failure wasn’t actually as bad as I thought it would be. Great job!

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    1. Running to the Kitchen Post author

      I LOVE them. I ordered them blindly online (not the smartest move) but couldn’t be happier. I usually wear orthodics in my running shoes b/c I have flat/messed up feet and if I don’t they end up hurting so I was worried about using these for crossfit since we definitely do our share of running and other met con types of workouts but they haven’t bothered me a bit!

  8. Megan {Country Cleaver}

    I miss my x-circuiting – like crossfit, just toned down enough that my broken back could get through it without recrippling myself and still see killer results. You have put it all into perspective again and that I really need to get back on the horse – or circuit as it were. Thanks for rocking on and inspiring the heck out of me once again. (No ass kissing, genuine rocking of my socks. Thanks G.)

  9. Kat

    you look sick…like awesome sick not like pukey sick. I’m super jealous. The whole thing looks so energizing and fun and awesome and like it pushes you to the edge. Maybe once I’m done with my newest adventure I can try this.

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  11. julie

    LOVEDDDDD this post! thanks for reminding me that we need to focus on ourselves instead of what everyone else is doing! i just started crossfit and i’ve got the bug and i’m afraid of failure or not keeping up but this is a great reminder that it’s supposed to be FUN!


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